sora4126's Xanga

Lotsa thing changing

Sun, 16 Mar 2008 21:24:16 GMT

First, wtf is with the change in Xanga. I mean c'mon guys, I don't want this Phoenix Wright song playing anymore! I wish I could just go into Look and Feel again and fix it, but no, that's not there anymore. Friggin hoes, making things more complicated than they already are! GRRR!!!

Second, wtf is with people being retarded, it's obnoxious as crap and they can all just bugger off! It's all like, "I'm clever even though I'm makin a friggin jackass outta myself, dur dur durrrrrrr..." Which makes me be all like, "GTFO NOW!!! I'll ban you from the server that is my life!" Then I can't even get one on one time with the one person that truly matters to me, 'cause of those retards flaunting around all the time!

Third, I'm friggin sick of being at home! I really need to get a job so I can move out and actually be able to try and be happy. Everyone's pretty insane. And yeah, I get family's are supposed to be insane, but this goes beyond family being insane, everyone's insane. I friggin feel trapped by all these people that are around me.

Fourth, I can solve everyone's problems, but my own. I was friggin helping a few people the other day so they wouldn't get all depressed and shit, and I realized this. I can't solve my own problems, only other peoples. It sucks so bad, and I don't like relying off of other people 'cause they don't know how I feel, they don't know how my mind works. The only reason I'm able to help other people is because I have a grasp on how their minds work...

Sorry xanga that all I really do with you is rant, but I wouldn't be ranting if people would just get out of my life and shut the hell up! I'm sure I'd be fine on my own and I'm really sick and tired of all of this!!!

Take that!

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 02:04:10 GMT

There, I've got my site with good music and a good icon. This is now a complete site... well as complete as I feel like letting it be.
Anyway, I've really not done anything with this... then again, no one else has, so whatever.

Anyway, past couple days have been getting better baboo-wise. For starters, we're starting to say hi in the halls, which isn't major, but hey, better than ignoring me. And then a light convo afterward that just made things better. Baboo's expression went from pissed (before talking to me) to somewhat content (after convo). And talking with my baboo makes me happy, so yay!!

Anyway, how was everyone's christmas and holidays and new years and stuff?
How was mine? (you may not be asking yourself)
Well, I'll tell you. Winter Break was the biggest snoresfest ever. I mean I did get lotsa sleep, but that's not what I meant by snoresfest. I meant it was hella boring.
I got 4 games.
Super Mario Galaxy: beat in 5 hours
PBR: Only fun if you've beaten the DS games first
Phoenix Wright Trial and Tribulations: Ending's a bit of a let down, but was hella hard, still enjoy it.
Carnival Games: Fun with 4 people, just 2 it can be cool, but yeah the more the merrier.

That part was ok. New Years wasn't too bad though. No one seemed to notice I got into the Rum and Coke, which is good. I got to play Trauma Center with my sister, and we're a hella good team. Then we watched Rocky Horror, which I really wanna go see the live performance now.

I honestly think that main reason Winter Break was a letdown for me is because... I never heard from any of my friends... well, 2 of them I did. And they were two I gave these important notes to. 2 out of the 4 people who got them... the 4 people I like the most and only two responded and had conversations with me. I mean one of 'em is my baboo, so it's kinda understandable why there's no response there, well if you know who it is anyway.
But on of 'em... yeah, she never real spoke with me much....

Anyway, I'm ready for my alone life now, let's get started!

Wow dude...

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 02:37:00 GMT

Don't you just love it when people make themselves out to be super tolerant people, with a fresh open mind.... then you tell them that, oh say someone you like is older, then they full on say they'd treat you differently...
I hate it when people do that. I'm sorry I'm into someone whose older, if you can't deal with it, then you're very similar to those people against gay marriage. It's the same concept: 2 people who don't seem like they should be together, being together...

If you don't like it, then let me know, then after that (unless you have a truly good reason) kiss the fattest part of my ass!

Thursday, October 04, 2007

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 03:08:49 GMT

Stupid... no person should ever have to hear their parent call them that. It is just a word... and not the most creative. However coming from a parent can be just a hurtful as a 12-gauge shooting your torso. There are certain words... that just aren't meant to be told to your children.
I vow, if ever I end up having kids, I'm never going to call them stupid or anything negative that could be taken as hurtful. With you few who read this as my witness, if this VFL ends up having kids, he shall not call them stupid, slutty, useless, etc. It hurts too much.

That's it!

Tue, 25 Sep 2007 02:37:34 GMT

I'm dressing up as Solid Snake. He's my favorite game character now. He's hot, cool, intelligent, and just over all amazing. He is the personification of what I'd like to be.
Anyway, today's officially the day where the 5th person said I should be a math teacher as a career. Kinda strange... but whatever, I guess it'd be kinda fun.

So... I'm bored now and have something to go and do, good bye!

Grrrrr

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 00:21:11 GMT

This sucks, my whole recording thing is gone so I can't do any more of my boss series'. -_-'

In other news, things have been going better than they were before. I've been talking with my sweet baboo a bit more, and I'm dealing with my distrustful friends a lot better.
Tomorrow's club day at school, and my friend, Alex, who's in charge of one of the clubs said I can dance on the club table to get people to sign up. I'm looking forward to do, just gonna pull a Little Miss Sunshine.
Well, anyway, I've got to get going, later.

Trust

Mon, 10 Sep 2007 22:03:59 GMT

trust [truhst] –noun

1.	reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence.

2.	confident expectation of something; hope.

3.	confidence in the certainty of future payment for property or goods received; credit: to sell merchandise on trust.

4.	a person on whom or thing on which one relies: God is my trust.

(courtesy of dictionary.com)

Everyone seems to have someone that meets those qualities. Everyone is supposed to have one person that symbolizes that to them. I look around me and see my friends all seem to have met that person. I look around and see a void in front of me, as apposed to the person I should be trusting. There is no one like that for me.

Usually what happens next is someone's emotions die... I really don't want that to happen. I'm gonna try to keep 'em, but... I doubt I'll be able to forever...

There's no trust

Fri, 31 Aug 2007 22:18:54 GMT

After careful analysis on myself and people I know. I've come to the conclusion that there are very few people who are trustworthy. There are two that I know I can talk to with secrets and other things along those lines, but with those two, I know things about them that they don't want anyone to know. So basically I have blackmail on them. To me, that's not trust. To me trust is something developed between people that share a common likeness toward each other. And I'm doubting there's anyone that would be willing to talk with me about secrets and things... without wanting something in return or going off to tell someone. Even the person I thought I loved... I'm starting to realize they don't like me... or at least that's how it comes across.
So, I've decided I'm gonna stop trying to rely on other people about anything. Unless I can find that one person who will speak with me about anything, with true trust between us.
However, until that day comes I'm gonna be practically forced to do things on my own. There's no point in talking to people if you believe there's no trust or respect amongst each other.
Also, I noticed that numerous friendships are practically over, because we were only friends when it was convenient for them... that isn't friendship, that's just using someone for their abilities or whatever. Well ya know what? I'm through with it, I'm only gonna let the people that I know would do whatever it takes in their power to protect me and share things with me be able to hang out with me.

What is there?

Sat, 11 Aug 2007 18:36:05 GMT

I have been noticing an increase in boredom since summer school's been over. I'm not really sure as to what to do about it. I'm getting bored of my boss series and constantly wanting to do other games boss series. I guess I should just finish FFVI and then move on to whatever.

So, for the few who read this, which game should I do next?
Super Mario RPG
Tales of Phantasia
Mystic Quest

At the moment I'm leaning more toward Tales of Phantasia, but I haven't beaten it yet, so I'd need to do that before starting it and I'm still in the past on my file.

Anyway, I should prolly start doing something.

Superfreak!

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 04:21:34 GMT

She's a very kinky girl
The kind you don't take home to mother
She will never let your spirits down
Once you get her off the street, ow girl

She likes the boys in the band
She says that I'm her all-time favorite
When I make my move to her room it's the right time
She's never hard to please

(Refrain)
That girl is pretty wild now
The girl's a super freak
The kind of girl you read about
In new-wave magazine
That girl is pretty kinky
The girl's a super freak
I really love to taste her
Every time we meet
She's all right, she's all right
That girl's all right with me, yeah
She's a super freak, super freak
She's super-freaky, yow

Super freak, super freak

She's a very special girl
The kind of girl you want to know
From her head down to her toenails
Down to her feet, yeah
And she'll wait for me at backstage with her girlfriends
In a limousine
Going back in Chinatown

Three's not a crowd to her, she says
Room 714, I'll be waiting
When I get there she's got incense, wine and candles
It's such a freaky scene

(Refrain)

(Bridge)

Temptations sing!
Ohhhhh
Super freak, super freak
That girl's a super freak
Ohhhhh

She's a very kinky girl
The kind you don't take home to mother
She will never let your spirits down
Once you get her off the street, ow girl

That's been stuck in my head for awhile, all because of Little Miss Sunshine. Such a good movie.

Anyway, had my senior picture today. I freaked out on the first picture 'cause she was like, "ok... now... SMILE!" Kinda freaked me out, anyway, not much to report, later.